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I miss You

Friday, July 17, 2009

After promising Gerry that I'd be in church to help with the deco for confirmation, I made my way to church on a Tuesday evening. The whole notion of going down to church on a weekday evening was strangely familiar. It's been quite a while since I've done that since there hasn't been a need for me to be there on weekday evenings.

I realized what all these feelings were when I thought about it as I walked home from church. I miss serving God. I truly do. It's been a good year since I've taken a break and it sure is easy to neglect this very important part of Christian growth when life seems like a bed of roses without any responsibility in church.

Perhaps it's the reason I feel so distant from God. It's been a while since I lit the candle in my room and had a proper heart-to-heart with Him. Could it be true what St. Augustine said, that my heart is restless until it finds its rest in You?

I miss You. I truly do.

Rachel wrote in the pages of her life at 11:38 PM

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Dream Holiday

Monday, July 06, 2009

Holidays are hazardous. At least to me it is. Perhaps the reason why I've been updating less and less about the condition of my health is simply because I've slackened in my regime. I honestly don't remember the last reading that I took on my meter and where my blood sugars have been.

That's what the holidays does. It zaps you of your determination to get your health in check because your mind is everywhere else. It's in times like this that I wish that I had a robot that followed me around that monitored my exercise, insulin and carb portions. It's difficult to disassociate a holiday from school and a holiday from my health. Isn't it ironic how a holiday's supposed to be enjoyable, relaxing and well, carefree, yet I find myself struggling not to do that to prevent the numerous repercussions.

My dream holiday isn't one on a beach in the middle of no where. I'm dreaming of a holiday from the hustle and bustle of diabetes. Just one weekend away from Tommy, carb counting, hypos and hypers.

Life would be perfect.

Or so I reckon.

Rachel wrote in the pages of her life at 11:10 PM

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I DID IT!

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Despite being down and out with a mild case of the flu over the past 2 days, I'm smiling as I type this entry.

If you remember, I set out on a quest a few months back to get my triglyceride ratios back on track. To get my LDLs down and my HDLs up. Guess what?

I DID IT!

Here are the results:

Total Cholesterol: 4.81 (optimal:<5.17)
Triglycerides: 0.56 (optimal:<1.71)
HDL Cholesterol: 1.86 (optimal:>1.03)
LDL Cholesterol: 2.71 (optimal:<2.58)
Total Cholesterol/HDL Cholesterol Ratio: 2.58 (optimal:<4.4)

Everything's within the normal range except the LDLs. It's never looked so nice before. Thank you for your prayers. :)

Just when I think I can't, He reminds me that I can.

Rachel wrote in the pages of her life at 11:41 PM

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Diabetes Forgetables

Saturday, June 06, 2009

I have a horrendous memory. I don't deny it. There are some diabetes-related stuff that I often forget, especially when I'm busy and preoccupied.

Working at a child care over the past week hasn't helped the situation. Having to take care of the younglings has been quite a feat both physically and mentally. The four-time hypo over 8 hours on Monday killed me mentally by the time I got home.

There are tonnes of things I tend to forget when it comes to managing diabetes. Over the past week, there were days where I forgot to:
1. Check my BSLs
2. Bolus
3. Take my medication
4. Readjust my basal rates

I will remember to remember.

I must remember to remember.

Rachel wrote in the pages of her life at 12:02 AM

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For Nothing.

Sunday, May 31, 2009

A1c of 8.1.
Pre-hypertensive.

I'm anything but optimistic.

What happens when you don't feel like fighting anymore? I guess it doesn't help that everything that I've done to try and improve the situation over the past 3 months was for nothing. I feel like I don't know how to do this anymore.

How can all this toiling have been for nothing?

Rachel wrote in the pages of her life at 8:37 PM

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To the Doctor's Office

Saturday, May 30, 2009

I'm off to the doctor's office.

Wish me luck!

Rachel wrote in the pages of her life at 8:41 AM

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Tommy-Friendly

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Bringing Tommy shopping is never easy. It's difficult to find something that's comfortable AND Tommy-friendly. You see, I've had to get some new pants/bottoms because those that I was using have become loose and annoying to be in because they don't quite fit properly. It depresses me a little when pretty things are Tommy Unfriendly i.e. no pockets. I used to be a fan of flair skirts, but ever since Tommy came along, they kinda got eliminated.

If I were a seamstress, I'd make all my clothes myself and make detachable pockets for all types of clothes. Then again, I would need to learn how to sew. Unfortunately, I didn't do well at Home Economics at school.

In any case, I'm a pocket-junkie now.

Rachel wrote in the pages of her life at 4:49 PM

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