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Reality Check.

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

I just got home from facilitating my first ever CC4 camp. I can't even begin to describe the experience. Even as I write these 2 sentences, countless adjectives of the camp experience are whizzing in my mind.

Fulfilling.
Tiring.
Joyful.
Mind boggling.
Meaningful.
Amazing.

These are just to name a few. I had gone there to be of service to the teens, but who would have thought that this retreat was specially designed for my soul as well? I won't deny, I thought that it was going to be where we'll all be doing 'sai-kang' throughout, considering there were lots of it to be done, and that was all there was to it. To be extremely specific, I went there with a preconceived mindset of how it was going to be and even regarded it as more work that was piled up upon my shoulders.

Wrong again.

It wasn't just work. It was work without obligation. That's what made it so different from the past few weeks of slogging. The desire to give lit a blaze of fire within my soul which burned so vigorously that the physical fatigue seemed to dissolve into nothingness. Sure, I'd made claims about being able to go into a coma the next chance I had to sleep and even being able to sleep while standing on my feeble feet but I knew deep inside of me that I was there at the camp for a reason.

And I found that reason after doing some serious reflection some hours after the camp. God had given me so much 'mortal' support through this camp. I've seen in so many of my fellow facilitators the potential of Christ-centered relationships. It even reminded me of the beauty of the current friendships I already have. He has opened my eyes in so many aspects and made me see so many things that the list of it could go on and on. Take for example, Paks. She was so amazing this camp. If I didn't have this time with her, I wouldn't have seen what a beautiful and caring soul she has that exudes from her personality. (even with all the insults and lies. Ha...) Nor would I have known that Vanessa is such a selfless and dependable person.

Apart from laying that foundation of frienship, it was clear and without a doubt that the camp was my retreat to God as well. Sitting through all the sessions that revolved around Him had given me that zeal to push on.

Indeed. An awesome God He is.

Rachel wrote in the pages of her life at 1:57 PM

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