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Tuesday, March 03, 2009

I ate Carl's Junior for dinner today. Feeling too full after the meal to walk is probably the reason why I'm extremely hyper now with a 13.5 on my meter and needing an extra 4.5 units of insulin to correct that mistake.

You know, I've been seeing a lot of parallels with my disease and reality. Seeing a lot of God in many aspects of it and matching how many situations that my diabetic drama relate to how life is. The meal at Carl's Junior today drew one such relation for me today.

The thing about diabetes is that a long period of bad control would subsequently lead to complications like blindness, amputations, renal failure and a whole host of other problems. In order to ensure that I don't go down that path, it's a everyday decision that I need to make to make sure that my BSLs are monitored to fall within the normal range.

Like I shared before, there were periods of times where I made the decision to not care about the whole thing and let it deteriorate from bad to worse. From constant hyperglycaemia which seemed like a small thing at first, to consequences of infections, enlarged liver high LDLs and the list goes on.

I found that when I was hyper during those times, I started feeling really lethargic all the time and had this constant need to drink water. Nothing too difficult to deal with, but it slowly ate at my state of health and resulted in some minor complications.

Isn't that like how sin is? It really all starts with the small sins, the effects of it are often small and barely noticeable. With no corrective measures to check on our state of being, we get submerged deeper and deeper into it.

Checking my BSLs frequently is like the examination of conscience. Checking my blood sugar levels is like checking up on my soul and bringing my sins to my awareness. Knowing my blood sugar levels would then tell me how I should react to it. How much insulin do I need to correct a hyperglycaemia? Or how much do I need to eat to overcome hypoglycaemia? Deciding on the appropriate action to take is like going to the confessional for the Sacrament of Reconciliation with the promise of trying not to sin again.

I know that I'm definitely going to fall into sin again much like how I know my blood sugar levels won't always be perfect. But it's the heart for perfection that I wouldn't want to lose.

Rachel wrote in the pages of her life at 11:27 PM

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